Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Butterfly


This is gonna b the most difficult writing. I m so scared to do injustice to the feelings. The 3 of u, who will forever be in my memory for this experience, this post is for all of u.....

Friday, June 23rd, it began. A long anxious bus journey followed by a real scare, "where is she?". It was my responsibility to make sure she dosen't face ne problems. But then, my Dad would have been so proud of me had i been that responsible.

A toast of french wine marked the proceedings in the most befitting manner.

I shall use these few words as beads and thread them up, for they precisely define this memorable experience of mine. I have to be so very careful u see, a little mistake, and i'll curse myself.

'Mesmerizing' is the first word. Hats off to all those wonderful painters and sculptures. I did not need any prior knowledge of art to appreciate the sheer beauty and experience the resulting weakening. If musee d'orsay was mesmerizing, louvre was captivating. Damn, no comparisons. Its a sin. Moreover, i had the company of an extremely enthusiastic n wonderful 'guide'.

'Subtle' comes next. "Be not inhospitable to strangers, lest they be angels in disguise". Ne1 who visits this Book Store called the 'Shakespeare and Co', cannot forget this quotation in his lifetime. It was so unnoticeable from a distance that we were asking about its whereabouts, standing just a few metres away from it at Notre Dam. It felt like a sacred place to me. I was too scared to put a wrong foot on some holy object. I might sound stupid, but thats how it was for me. The creaky stairs, the grey typewriter, the touching letters, the smell of old wood... this place is "haven " (i cannot find another suitable word). Many people will agree to this. Atleast i'm sure of a few.

'Ecstasy' is the next bead. U need to stand on the Eiffel Tower, in the same light drizzle and breeze, to know what i mean. Add to it, a visit to one of the noisy bars at St. Michel, n u'll make it simply perfect.

'Great company' is the last 1. It is actually implicit for any memorable experience. The days flew so quickly, that i had to make deliberate attempt to quietly soak up some memories slowly.
The last evening at the Shisha bar was the perfect end to this remarkable journey. I was quiet, short of words, desperately wishing for the time to stop while my ears and eyes were functioning to their maximum, capturing each word n each expression of those 3 people sitting before me, drinking pipe. And those intermittent poem recitals. It was killing!

After a high comes a low. Since i have returned, my mind is so abundant with memories and thoughts that its difficult to do anything. Each moment is flashing before me in fast motion. And i simply cannot help to it.

There was this famous chinese guy who once dreamt of being a butterfly. When he woke up from the dream, he wasnt sure whether he had been dreaming of being a butterfly, or if he was actually a butterfly, dreaming of being a man. This perfectly marks my emotions today. "Was it a dream, or am in one?"

Paris, i will be back. Its a promise.

And finally, thanks to the 3 people, who turned this trip into an unforgettable experience.

Sunday, June 25, 2006

absent n random

I spent a few minutes to think a title for this post. But then i realied, i cant find any appropriate one. I dont know what i want to write. All i know is, i feel like writing.

There are these times when i write and publish posts imy mind. And then, later, i dont feel like reproducing them anywhere else. Moreover, these times are quite frequent. Today, i dont feel like publishing another post in my mind. I wann write, the only problem, i dont know what to write.

Did I mention that I m currently visiting Paris with 3 other people. I saw Louvre and Eiffel Tower today. I can see these 3 people sitting before me, seeing the pictures we took in the last 2 days.

My mind seems to be so full of thoughts. Its difficult to filter out a single stream to help me write a post.

People talk of symmetry n asymmetry in the world. Today i thought of a worth-while example of assymetry. It takes just a moment to hurt ne1, nd even a lifetime can prove insufficient to make ammends. Its unfair, aint it? newy, its not that i thought of this coz i offended sum1. It jus came random.

Most of the times i dont miss ne1 in this world. But at times, i do. But its not that i am missing sum1 rite now. I am just wondering why am i not.

Last few months have been a great time. I had a real bad time for a few months. Didnt get what i aimed for. Felt bad for sometime. But not really. Coz it dosent matter if i feel good or bad. Nothing would change. But then, how come i had a great time. I dont know, i just feel that this year, its been great. I hardly got anything going rite for me, but its not that everything went wrong. The things which went rite are enough to make it great.

Newy, i hear them calling me. I guess, i'll hafta finish this post.

Its time to get a drink nd probably have dinner.

And i'm naming this post, 'absent n random'.